I'm going to rant about myself here for a minute.
I hate what I've become, honestly...on this forum I used to be so happy, and making others laugh...but recently, I've been doing quite the opposite.
Something...I don't know what just made me give up on everything, I gave up on trying to make others smile, in reality...and everywhere else.
I ****ing hate myself, I really do...but I need to get some damn focus and try to shape and mold myself into the person I want to be...It's just I've recently learned to love myself for once instead of others. I mean, why waste time on people who are just going to leave and break my heart? At least that's what I used to think...I'm going to start to change myself, break myself down and rebuild anew. I shouldn't be so selfish about not being loved or cared for like I do others...I should just accept it and help others still...help those I've love smile...no matter how many times I get my heart broken...Family, friends, any other relationships. I'll still make others happy, even if it costs my own happiness...I'll always remember those who leave, I always will, even if I'm forgotten.
"Life wouldn't be so precious, if there never was an end."
Also
**** spiders
**** waiting for GTA V, I want it now
**** my coffee and tea not being made right.