You are so tactless daddy. Really. There is no excuse to post that on my flippin' facebook page. You could have sent it to me in a PM if you wanted, or you could have emailed me the news considering you had to be online to be on facebook anyway. Or, you could have sms'd it to me. Or BETTER YET, you could have let my MUM break the news to me. But nooo. You HAD to post it on my facebook page. Thank you, soo, soo much daddy, you're like the BEST daddy in the whole f-ing world, you've GOT to be the BEST FATHER EVER, because I sure as hell don't know of any other father who would post 'your aunt died last night' on their only daughter's ****ING FACEBOOK PAGE!
Thanks Dad. Thanks a mil. Don't take offence when I start avoiding contact with you lot. You have only yourself to blame for that.
On that. ****. First my grandad and now my aunt, all within the span of four months. My heart can't take it. I want to hate but there's nothing and no one to hate, death is just the final destination for everyone. Naught to be done about it. No point in trying to find a reason behind it. It just is.
I'm not angry about it, and my heart is sore, but... yesterday I felt raw. Like I'd been left out in the sun and like I'm scorched and blistered and RAW. Today I just feel numb.
I think I'm shattered.