The ranting thinking thread

[DanteStyle]

Emotional breakdown: (please don't reply or like or anything.)

Why? What is the point of all this? Yay, great, I know there's a whole group of mums who have pnd, that's good, I know there are people I can sort of relate to about what I'm going through. Thanks for that. How about a bunch of mothers who have post natal psychosis? I always feel like such a fraud to bring it up or make mention of it in a group setting where I think it may be okay. But I'm going to be judged. They're going to ask if I'm on anything for it, and I'm not. They're going to ask if I've mentioned it to my therapist, and I have, but evidently it did not warrant for them to keep in touch with me about it so it's got to be under control.
I feel like I'm losing my effin mind. And I shouldn't be. I'm eating better, exercising, socializing, writing, and feeling overall good. Maybe I'm hyper. Maybe I'm socializing too much. Maybe I'm writing too much. Maybe my moods verge on euphoria. I don't know, I haven't been 'normal' since primary school, how am I to know? I keep hearing voices. I heard a woman's voice humming loudly outside my window the other day. There was no one outside, I can vouch for that because I left the house and stood in my front garden like a total lunatic trying to find where the **** that voice was coming from. And now again today. And it's not the bloody wind, because I can HEAR the wind, and I can HEAR the voice mumbling along side it. They're two different things. Any idiot would be able to tell the difference, too.
And I swear I heard a metallic voice out in the hallway a minute ago. I think I'm losing it, and I don't know how to get myself together so... I'm just going to ****ing leave the house now.
argh!!!!!!!

 

[LordOfDarkness]

Wow she did a good job cosplaying as Lilith from DmC :troll:

 

[ReaperHunter]

So questions of the night, Why does Hi-C only come in little juice boxes now why don't they have the big jugs that used to chug when i was younger and while we are on the subject Where the heck is my Hawaiian punch?!

 

[Loopy]

Wow she did a good job cosplaying as Lilith from DmC :troll:

Any moment, mutant demon baby is going to escape from her head:lol:

Mini rant: wanted to buy a child a birthday present. So I get to the store and it turns out the doll she wanted is all sold out. I ask a member of staff and apparently adults ring in early to see which dolls are delivered and go get them before anyone else. Now, I wouldn't mind so much if this was for their own children, but apparently these people buy the dolls either for their own private collections or to sell at inflated prices on ebay. That really is not fair on the children who want these dolls to have fun with.

Also, thought I'd fixed my bedside lamp...looks like I'll have to rewire it....again....>_<

 

[DreadnoughtDT]

Soooo... I dunno why my luck is always so bad when I'm trying to make a game, but I've literally searched everywhere for digital artists to do some artwork for me and absolutely no one is willing. It's always one little thing that makes it all fall apart. -.- ****es me off.

 

[DanteStyle]

Soooo... I dunno why my luck is always so bad when I'm trying to make a game, but I've literally searched everywhere for digital artists to do some artwork for me and absolutely no one is willing. It's always one little thing that makes it all fall apart. -.- ****es me off.

Liar liar, VB replied to your thread, and I'll give it a go as well.

 

[LordOfDarkness]

Liar liar, VB replied to your thread, and I'll give it a go as well.

Do I possibly detect that his pants may be on fire too?

 

[DreadnoughtDT]

Do I possibly detect that his pants may be on fire too?

Pretty sure my pants aren't *FWOOSH* OH FOOF, that's my best longcoat!

 

[DanteStyle]

There's laundry everywhere. (This is neverrrrrr going to change!!!!)
There's dirty dishes. (I thought about doing them when I got home from work, but you were in the kitchen, you'd changed the entire ****ing layout of my lounge and dining area, and you looked all grumpy, didn't even say hello or anything to me for the first 10 minutes I was home. You were cooking. WTF is the point in doing dishes WHILE you're cooking? And wtf is wrong with your hands? You think putting the dishes into order to be washed is HELPING? The ****, dude?)
There's nappies in the dustbin.(Oh, well, I'm so sorry that you found it difficult to put it outside yourself?)
There are no clean, easily accessible and appropriate clothes for the children. (I still can't wrap my mind around this one. I put the kids' PJ's on their beds. I told I did. You should have been sorted. WTF happened?)
There are no pens by the phone. (SERIOUSLY? Because you couldn't find a ****ing pen to write your list of complaints? There is a bloody reason there aren't any pens by the phone.)



Next time I just won't go out.
Effin problem solved.

 

[The crazy demon]

And apparently becaouse of the gred of that stupid idiot our life got a truck-load of sh** on top.

 

[Jak]

my parents keep saying that writing isn't a real job. it doesn't pay that well....if you're so concerned about money THEN WHY THE **** ARE YOU TEACHERS!?!

 

[DreadnoughtDT]

Watch this, all. Look at this cack. WHAT THE FOOF are they thinking?! >_<

 

[Shadow]

my parents keep saying that writing isn't a real job. it doesn't pay that well....if you're so concerned about money THEN WHY THE **** ARE YOU TEACHERS!?!

My grandmother does the same to me. :/ No matter how many times I tell her I don't care about money, as long as I'm doing what I love, she doesn't seem to get it. Maybe they just need to see us succeed in it first....

 

[Loopy]

My grandmother does the same to me. :/ No matter how many times I tell her I don't care about money, as long as I'm doing what I love, she doesn't seem to get it. Maybe they just need to see us succeed in it first....

Parents want to see their children do better than them, and that is usually with good intent, even if it does seem pushy...and then there are some parents think their children owe them success on account of spending time and money on the child.>_< Those kind of parents are wierd...it's like they see their child as a business investment.
Actually, those kind of controlling people shouldn't have children at all. Some of the uni friends I have are there because of controlling parents who want them to get certain careers, no thought to what their child really wants to do. Then you get a bunch of resentful and angry young adults who hate their parents.

As for grandparents...I guess it's the same. They want their grandchildren to do well because they love them. Then you get the weird grandparents who think you should do well because of how much their own children sacrificed for you.

So, I think that most of the time this pushing for a 'real job' does come from a good place, but sometimes parents have to let their children try what they want to try.

 

[Angel]

I'd do something bad too if someone came up to a member of my family and said nasty things just because because they're autistic. It's a really hurtful thing for parents and the child to experience. It's like saying your child is less than other children, that they don't deserve to be here. It's so cruel. I don't know how anyone could say that.

If people want to continue being so ignorant and hurtful, they should at least do it in private if they have to do it at all.

When we are somewhere people don't recognise us, Jake gets lots of stares and hurtful comments (not that he cares, he has no clue). Now, it's normal to stare when something out of the ordinary happens - I do it to. It's just curiosity and there's nothing wrong with that. It's when the staring becomes prolonged and usually accompanied with someone's mouth hanging open or mouthing negative words or, my personal irritation, the slow shaking of the head and the rolling of the eyes for the benefit of other observers.

When it last snowed, some guy in the street started going on about how we ought to be reported to social services because Jake had taken his shoes and socks off (he has low sensitivity to temperature and spends a lot of time in just his nappy, even if it's snowing). I was pretty close to kicking off but didn't as that wouldn't have been right or appropriate. You get told that eventually you grow a thick skin (known by most parents of ASD kids as Rhino Hide) and just learn to ignore things but I'm not there yet. Every comment, look, negative body language really gets to me. Sometimes people just need to know that there's a reason for the behaviour and they respond better (knowledge is power, after all) but there are just some people who think people with any sort of mental disorder should have been aborted rather than born at all.

What interests me when you find people who hate the disabled is that at some point in life, we all need care. When we get old, we decline and fall apart and anything from a knackered arthritic back to senile dementia can set it - then we become, for all intents and purposes, disabled ourselves. I would LOVE to visit some of these haters when they reach that stage in life and ask them when they would like to be taken outside and shot, as per their beliefs as younger adults. And I'll bet any amount of money that they won't be happy with that suggestion...

 

[aoshi]

I think the word 'hospitality' is out of vocabulary in my region.......

The bus stop had no place to sit while waiting for buses(besides the floor) and there was a wide(very wide) stair-case leading to a stationary shop jus near the bus stop. An old man sits at the bottom of stair-case waiting for the bus and the guard pushes him not to use the stair-case.I don't have a clue of wat exactly is at loss(to the shop) by this old-man, besides hospitality.....

Some world i live in.

 

[Loopy]

When it last snowed, some guy in the street started going on about how we ought to be reported to social services because Jake had taken his shoes and socks off (he has low sensitivity to temperature and spends a lot of time in just his nappy, even if it's snowing). I was pretty close to kicking off but didn't as that wouldn't have been right or appropriate. You get told that eventually you grow a thick skin (known by most parents of ASD kids as Rhino Hide) and just learn to ignore things but I'm not there yet. Every comment, look, negative body language really gets to me. Sometimes people just need to know that there's a reason for the behaviour and they respond better (knowledge is power, after all) but there are just some people who think people with any sort of mental disorder should have been aborted rather than born at all.

That must have been terrible for you. That guy had no right to say something like that. It's a shame you didn't put him straight, but you're right, I guess it wouldn't have been best.
I don't know why people don't ask the parents. It's much more polite than to stare, and then maybe they'll understand why the child is doing what they do. But it seems like some people are more happy to just pass negative judgement instead of reaching out.
What gets me is when my friends take their son out to play in the park, and then I see other parents actually picking up their children and leaving because they are afraid. It's really hurtful.

What interests me when you find people who hate the disabled is that at some point in life, we all need care. When we get old, we decline and fall apart and anything from a knackered arthritic back to senile dementia can set it - then we become, for all intents and purposes, disabled ourselves. I would LOVE to visit some of these haters when they reach that stage in life and ask them when they would like to be taken outside and shot, as per their beliefs as younger adults. And I'll bet any amount of money that they won't be happy with that suggestion...

Exactly. All people need to be looked after. Just because a person is born without health complications doesn't mean they won't have them later in life. People could need care as a result of a car crash, or a stroke, or a progressive illness.
I do wish people would think before they say such hateful things like aborting autistic children. Who gave them a right to say that life isn't worth living? We've moved on from Spartan child rearing where babies were left in the woods or drowned.
My friends would have a raging fit if they were told their son's life was not worth it. They love him, even if it is difficult sometimes. They would never want him dead. Someone once tactlessly suggested that if they were having too much trouble, they should send their son to a specialist boarding school and try for a 'normal' child.>_< Needless to say, they do not speak to that friend very much anymore.

 

[Angel]

What gets me is when my friends take their son out to play in the park, and then I see other parents actually picking up their children and leaving because they are afraid. It's really hurtful.

Never had people remove their child (that I've noticed, anyway) but we have had it where some kids in one of those indoor softplay areas were grouping together to try and avoid Jake because he was "weird" and they didn't want him joining in. Needless to say, their parents were the ones sitting on their iPhones and laptops and not paying any attention to their kids or playing with them. I did chat to a few mums there and they did ask what was wrong with Jake because he wasn't talking properly and was in his own little world - I told them he's got autism and their entire countenance changed, they were telling me about family members and friends with the same issues and it was a really good time. Also gave me back up when other kids were being mean because there were other adults there to say, "no, you can't behave like that so sort it out or I'll tell your mum".

The really opinionated people are the ones who get on my nerves the most - the ones who tell you to get a proper job instead of being a carer because it's not fair that others work in "real jobs" and you just sit there on your backside waiting for the next cheque to drop through the door. That blows my mind a bit, really. Carers of disabled children CAN'T work, for the most part. Because the complex needs of the child are such that it is IMPOSSIBLE during the first 10 years at least for many parents to be able to manage a job and caring for a child who cannot function in society yet, for want of a better phrase.

I know at least 3 families personally who had good jobs, nice houses and worked damn hard - then they had a disabled child and have lost or given up everything in order to care for that kid - even down to their home. They don't resent their child at all...just the insensitive comments of people who, to my mind, are ignorant of the situation and how tough it can be. I mean, who is going to employ someone who has to leave at the drop of a hat, maybe several times in a few hours, to go and sort out a problem with their child? I know I wouldn't employ anyone who couldn't actually be available for the job - it's madness! Jake's special needs school is excellent but if he gets sick, he can't tell you and they would need me to get there immediately to help. His school is almost 10 miles from our town and we don't drive. Work is impractical, as much as I'd love to be able to have a "proper job", as some would see it.

And don't get me started on how much people seem to think carers make...they are forgetting that WE aren't the recipients of disability benefits, we are just the allocated guardians of the money. Sure, some unscrupulous parents may well fritter it all away on themselves but for us, it's Jake's money and goes into his account for when he needs something like a sensory item or some safety equipment. If there is an autism app for his iPad, he can buy it himself. I don't get "paid" the DLA - it's not for me. We get just £59 per week as our wages - people who care in homes get more money than that and work less hours. We are on duty 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and no annual leave. So as far as I'm concerned, until the busybodies of this world have spent just a morning in my shoes when Jake is having a meltdown and he's drawing blood from my arms and face with his scratching and biting, they can eff right off.

 

[aoshi]

I hate facial hair. As a teenager, I really wanted facial hair. But now its a chore.>_<

 

[LeoXCV]

I hate facial hair. As a teenager, I really wanted facial hair. But now its a chore.>_<

Try being a spotty teen with facial hair, it's impossibly difficult to not cut yourself. I hate it so much ;_;