I think I've come to realize that what bothers me most about this election is not Trump, but his followers. Trump is one man and the people around him are aware of what he's like. He can be contained to reduce damage. Bills can be refused. Accidents can happen. But his followers? They're worse. Because they've seen all the hateful, cruel, derogatory things he's said and promised, they've seen him admit to all-but raping women and that he thinks that's perfectly acceptable, and they've seen how he treats anyone who is not a rich, "mentally stable", white man as sub-human...and they're agreeing with him. They're saying that's okay. And, now that he's going to be in a position of power, he's giving them permission to be just like him. And that? That scares me. And I'm scared for both myself and those I care for. How long is it before someone accepts that permission and uses "well, my president did it, so it's okay for me to do it, too" as a defense for their actions? How can that be defended against? How can you justifiably say "well, it's okay that he did it, but not you"...when Trump is as much a citizen as anyone else and should be held accountable for his actions...and he's not.
Look, I know some people had good reasons for voting for him. I'm sure not everyone who voted for him is a bigoted, racist, sexist prig, but that doesn't change that that is what Trump is. This is a man that was supported by more hate groups than any other nominee. This is a man who has repeatedly expressed a desire to bomb anyone he disagrees with. And this is a man who has blatantly flaunted that the only life that matters to him is his own. And you still stood with him. I hope those reasons were worth it to you.
At this point, I think I'd be a lot less angry if Trump supporters stopped acting like children. Egging and threatening people because of how they look. Sending hate messages to anyone who expresses fear. Acting like bullies by making fun of those who are now afraid--to walk out their house, to celebrate their religion, because of their heritage, because of just being who they are. Am I surprised? No. The biggest bully has just been elected president, of course all the wannabe-head-bullies are coming out of the woodwork. Am I disappointed? Yes. Yes, I am. I'm disappointed because I thought our country was better than this. I thought we knew how to be progressive and accepting and that we were slowly becoming better. I thought this was a country I could speak well to any future children I might have. I thought this was a country where people where supposed to have great opportunity--isn't that what ideal the US was supposedly founded on? The right to liberty and freedom from oppression? So why is it suddenly okay that people are terrified? This is the first presidential election where suicide prevention hotlines and links were circulated frequently the entire night. People should not be afraid of their government. People should not be afraid that, when they wake up in the morning, the entire country will have been destroyed because of a man with bad hair. And yet they are. And it's not funny. It's heartbreaking.
All in all, this election has shown more about the people in this country than I feel has been shown before. And it's shown strange things. Strange, terrible things. And I suppose I can't hate the people that voted. Hatred, after all, is consuming and negates healing. But I can disdain their decision and, above all, I pity them. And I can prepare for the future, even if I still don't understand the present.
Are people afraid of a woman leading the US? Are people just hateful and brutish? Perhaps time will tell. I guess I'd just rest easier if I understood.