Appreciate all the replies!
@Rebel Dynasty I get what you mean about the characters motivating you, the want to explore who the are and how they experience things. It's kind of fascinating to me lol, cause you want to know what goes through their heads and how they look at their lives, even though you yourself are the one making all of that.
@Sparda's rejected son Exploring your options gets you rolling eh, I can get behind that. To me that sounds like exploring your imagination, seeing all the ways you can write dialogues and being surprised with what you can make work, like with your example of a sex joke being made in a serious situation, and it just fitting really well!
@Shadow Discipline probably also has to do with it. Writing a couple sentences is already better than writing nothing at all. Honestly so far I've mostly been taking notes of the way the characters are, how they relate to one another, specific things I'd like to put into the plot, etc. I prefer doing that just so I can be fully ready when I start going for real. But even then the notes-taking can't go on forever and I haven't done that in a long time either.
Okay now the most inportant point is probably this.
Maybe, deep down, you don't actually like it as much as you thought.
I don't think that's true, because I think about the story I want to write down quite a lot and I never really get bored of it either.
My main issue may be...embarrassment. When I'm thinking about writing and when I am in fact behind my laptop making notes about my story, the thought of it being weird or dumb sometimes enters my head. It feels like 0 people I know do these sorts of things and think about writing/stories the way I do. Looking at myself compared to the others, it makes me feel like I'm strange, unusual. I guess that may be why I'm not comfortable with writing yet.
Oookay I got pretty serious there.
Technically I'm not going off-topic because these are things I'm thinking so it's all good haha
