Okay, so I get that your mum's a b*tch. I get that your dad is gone too much to care. What I don't get is why you stay there. I mean, hello! You're an adult, you have a job, you have money, move out of your parents house! Cuz, honestly, I don't know how much longer I can sit here comforting you about it. And you won't stop going on about those two girls. Really, if they hated you as much as you think, wouldn't they have tried to ban you from that site already? I mean, they're mods just like you and me. And why would they have agreed with you applying if they really hate you? You want a way to keep from getting angry at them should they supposedly get mad at you for giving your input as a fellow mod? Then ignore them! Or, better yet, just go off on them. If all the other mods agree with you, maybe they'll learn a lesson. But stop being wishy-washy. You throw around phrases like "life just isn't worth living" and "I'm not good for anything" like they're toys. Don't you realize how much that bothers me? I'm sitting here on the other side of the world from you, and you're considering suicide and what the f*ck am I supposed to do other than sit here and panic that you'll actually do it?! Every time I praise you for something, you act like you've never been praised before, and as soon as it comes up about why you don't feel good about yourself, you mention that no one gives you praise. Don't turn around and tell me that you don't believe me when I say I like things that you've made/written/etc. I'm your friend. I'm not going to sit here and bullsh*t you just because I feel sorry for you. Yes, I really do believe things can get better, and yes I believe in you, but, honey, you need to step up and take some responsibility for yourself. Nothing happens if you don't make it happen. Opportunity isn't going to just fall into your lap, you have to go out there and grab it. And if you sit around believing that life will never get better and that you have nothing to live for and that there's no point to anything, then, trust me, that's how life will be. I've spent fifteen years of my life stuck in a rat-infested condo thinking just that. Grow up and stop acting like you've not got anything. You do. There are people who care about you. And if I ever can get all the way to Asia to see you, you better keep your mother away from me because her telling you that you're worthless and you should never have been born just makes me want to punch her in the face.
That felt good. Why didn't I know about this thread sooner? ._.
