^ Just be sure to consider a lot beforehand whether it will be change for the better or worse.
So this is a thread to let out all of your frustration. Maybe not as gratifying, but certainly more legal than punching someone out cold. I have built up frustration to the point of being permenantly tense. Some of the stuff I've had to put up with, I would not wish on anyone. Rather than warmth though, it keeps me very cold, it sends intermittent shivers down my spine and I really don't care for anyone anymore. I mean, I know it's not good to care more for your CD collection than your immediate family but that is the case. I'm also attracted to fire and blood, they're almost cathartic to me. I really hope I don't just snap one day because there is no telling how far I might go. When I was younger I got into a lot of fights and seriously injured at least two people I fought against. Fortunately that's stopped. I mean, I'm dependent on two things to calm me down, tea and cider (not together). But I seem to vent it randomly, seemingly getting angry over very silly things. I mean, I've long since lost my faith, My parents are divorced, my father has took no financial responsibility for us (me and my sisters) in four years, I always feel awkward in social situations due to asperger syndrome, I went all throughout high school without date number one, I've fell in grades to a level of mediocrity that I cannot abide myself for, in spite of my passion for the subjects I took, I've fallen out of trees when I was young and as such I've developed a fear of heights which I loathe in myself as I know it's completely stupid. I'm also angry that the conservative party looks strong to win the next general election here, I'm angry that all left of centre parties stand no chance of getting any position of power, thus money reigns over basic humanitarian principles which I believe is a disgrace. I'm just angry both at myself and the world for more reasons than I could possibly fit in a thousand page novel. I probably need professional help but, in spite of everything I've done both to compensate for my misendeavors and even more so, I have yet to reap any kind of reward, either manifest or 'spiritual' for the lack of a better word thus proving to me that Karma is also a false concept. Another thing for which I feel a substantial amount of anger. That's the tip of the iceberg, I won't subject you to any more. Good to get it off my chest anyway.
