+rep Phantarch, nice...albiet an unnearving thread
I have duel fears...well, maybe three...hard to tell.
As yourself said Phantarch Agoraphobia, the fear of open spaces...I wouldn't say I am terrified, but I am unnearved by them.
Well, I was. It used to be the case that I hated being dwarfed by something...a large (ie. 60ft tall) standalonemonument, or being on a tall hill side...I always felt like I was about to fall into the sky and it just made me queaasy and really jittery.
Admittedly, after my recent holiday I kinda conquored<speelings no gud) it. On my final full day we approached Europes largest Sand Dune, and I was VERY jittery at the thought of it, climbing up it (112m) and also falling down. Thankfully, I did...primarally because my own protective instincts kicked in when Hayley, my otherhalf, was very unnearved by climbing it - which caused me to abandon my fear in aid of helping her with hers.
As I got to the top, the very top, with all the other tourists the view took my breath away and I was finally able to put everything, fearwise into perspective. I had dense forest to my left, a mountain of sand at my feet, an endless sky above and the ocean to my right. An incredibly empowering experience and despite the fact that I was standing on the edge of this mountain of shattered glass, touching a vast sky...I felt completly at peace, which was a relief
My second fear is Snakes...~shiver~ can't help it, they freak me out!
My third and final (that I know of anyway :O) is the dark.
I know it sounds dumb, but its not the way it sounds.
I am more than content sitting in the dark all emo-ish listening to my music while I brainstorm. But, at the dead of night, while I lay back in bed (on the occassions that I am alone), my mind and heart race and all I think about is death and whats on the otherside, what it will be like when I am old and waiting for death to take me...and suddenly I am filled with fear, forced to turn the light on, play the PSP or DS and just try and get back to grips with reality.
Thankfully, I have also come to terms with this also, don't get me wrong, death is still a scary thing, but I have come to understand that while I am as young as I am, I WILL fear death. But, I also understand that once I have lived my life, raised my childen and theirs, acheieved what I want to acheive love all I can love...then all that is left for me is to discover what is waiting for me elsewhere...sure its a grim reality...but sadly its what we're lumped with lol
I bet your all worrying now...oh sh** out mod is a weridy! lol!!
Well, I just find it odd that out of all the forums I participate on...here is the only place where I can be honest
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