The Da3dra
Master Of War
This apology is a lil late sorry
I would like to start by saying that I am sincerely sorry for what I had done.
I have one friend in real life, I have no job, I have no significant other, My grandmother, the person who had treated me better than my parents ever had is roughly 630 miles away, dying, and has no idea who the f*ck I am anymore, due to a lack of money I cannot go to college and have been reduced to nothing more than a house maid, and the frequent realization that none of this will change gets me frustrated and more often than not makes me severly depressed. This is by no means an excuse but rather just an insight of how pathetic my life really is.
In my time here, I've met a lot of people; and I gathered opinions for them. I guess flaming those whose opinions were less than kind was a way to vent my frustration, not a smart one, but a way to vent none the less. That is how this all really started for those of you who didn’t know.
The thread however came of my rational at the time that I wasn’t wanted in the forums anymore and that if there were enough people that wanted me to leave it, I would. And between LoD posting I was acting childish, NerosDevil posting I was retarded, and the surprising amount of people that carried grudges against me, as evident in the poll, I kept feeling more compelled to make the idea of becoming banned a reality. Looking back I can’t blame any of them. I am quite nasty to a lot of the members, I was acting childish, I was acting rashly, and had I been ND I would have even said I was being retarded. Although in reality I would have probably been a lot more harsh on myself.
I need to apologize to Sparda™. I had said some things to him that were quite distasteful. You have nothing to gain from lying to us about your life, and me stating that you were was completely uncalled for.
Bandoor, I treat you wrongly because I myself am flawed. If you take anything from this know that you are the better person.
BringerOfChaos888, to be 100% honest you had done absolutely nothing wrong. I just decided to hate you because you had agreed with a statement Bandoor made about me. Looking back I can tell now that you were not necessarily agreeing with Bandoor’s opinion of me but rather the way he so “eloquently” put me in my place.
Esura, I treat you unfairly only because your opinions differ from mine. I get frustrated when I see you bash the gaming platforms I hold so dearly, but all the same hating you merely because you think differently from me goes against my own belief that everyone is entitled to their own opinion.
Enigmatic Soldier, although I have ceased being a dick to him now, I once was unreasonably mean towards him. I even went as far as to flame him on his own profile. I want you to know that I only made fun of you because it made me feel better about myself. It is cold hearted but it’s the truth.
NerosDevil, even though I had edited the message before you read it, I had said some nasty things about you on your profile. You said what you said to me because of the way I was acting not because of who I am, there was no reason for me to be so mean to you.
LoD, you have been so nice to me ever since I joined the forum. I treated you very rudely when you had done nothing to deserve it.
Wickse, biohazardmaster, Angel Credo, and all the others that wasted their time on my meaningless thread, I’m sorry. I acted very unwisely in making that thread; I should have been the bigger person and just apologized for what I had said. But instead I made that stupid ass thread and you guys were roped into it even though you guys had nothing to do with it.
The Staff, It’s the kind of behavior I displayed that makes wonderful forums such as yours distasteful. It is people like me that cause problems that you shouldn’t have to deal with in the first place. I have spoken to every member of the staff one on one at least once, save for Keaton, and you have all treated me with respect and kindness I so clearly don’t deserve.
To all my closest friends, I'm not saying I'm anything special but I enjoy your company and you enjoy mine. I didn't think about how you guys would feel should I leave and that is just as bad as if I said you mean nothing to me.
I can't think of anyone else to apologize to, even though I know there most likely are. You are the ones I will most likely never be able to apologize enough to. But know that whatever I did, be it out of malice, jealousy, os sadness, I am so so sorry.
I just felt so damn lonely, and I wanted answers as to why people seemed so against me when all I had to do was look at myself to see what was so wrong. I appreciate the people on this forum. I enjoy their company and look forward to chatting with them everyday. All I can say now is that I hope you can forgive me, but I completely understand if you don’t.
I would like to start by saying that I am sincerely sorry for what I had done.
I have one friend in real life, I have no job, I have no significant other, My grandmother, the person who had treated me better than my parents ever had is roughly 630 miles away, dying, and has no idea who the f*ck I am anymore, due to a lack of money I cannot go to college and have been reduced to nothing more than a house maid, and the frequent realization that none of this will change gets me frustrated and more often than not makes me severly depressed. This is by no means an excuse but rather just an insight of how pathetic my life really is.
In my time here, I've met a lot of people; and I gathered opinions for them. I guess flaming those whose opinions were less than kind was a way to vent my frustration, not a smart one, but a way to vent none the less. That is how this all really started for those of you who didn’t know.
The thread however came of my rational at the time that I wasn’t wanted in the forums anymore and that if there were enough people that wanted me to leave it, I would. And between LoD posting I was acting childish, NerosDevil posting I was retarded, and the surprising amount of people that carried grudges against me, as evident in the poll, I kept feeling more compelled to make the idea of becoming banned a reality. Looking back I can’t blame any of them. I am quite nasty to a lot of the members, I was acting childish, I was acting rashly, and had I been ND I would have even said I was being retarded. Although in reality I would have probably been a lot more harsh on myself.
I need to apologize to Sparda™. I had said some things to him that were quite distasteful. You have nothing to gain from lying to us about your life, and me stating that you were was completely uncalled for.
Bandoor, I treat you wrongly because I myself am flawed. If you take anything from this know that you are the better person.
BringerOfChaos888, to be 100% honest you had done absolutely nothing wrong. I just decided to hate you because you had agreed with a statement Bandoor made about me. Looking back I can tell now that you were not necessarily agreeing with Bandoor’s opinion of me but rather the way he so “eloquently” put me in my place.
Esura, I treat you unfairly only because your opinions differ from mine. I get frustrated when I see you bash the gaming platforms I hold so dearly, but all the same hating you merely because you think differently from me goes against my own belief that everyone is entitled to their own opinion.
Enigmatic Soldier, although I have ceased being a dick to him now, I once was unreasonably mean towards him. I even went as far as to flame him on his own profile. I want you to know that I only made fun of you because it made me feel better about myself. It is cold hearted but it’s the truth.
NerosDevil, even though I had edited the message before you read it, I had said some nasty things about you on your profile. You said what you said to me because of the way I was acting not because of who I am, there was no reason for me to be so mean to you.
LoD, you have been so nice to me ever since I joined the forum. I treated you very rudely when you had done nothing to deserve it.
Wickse, biohazardmaster, Angel Credo, and all the others that wasted their time on my meaningless thread, I’m sorry. I acted very unwisely in making that thread; I should have been the bigger person and just apologized for what I had said. But instead I made that stupid ass thread and you guys were roped into it even though you guys had nothing to do with it.
The Staff, It’s the kind of behavior I displayed that makes wonderful forums such as yours distasteful. It is people like me that cause problems that you shouldn’t have to deal with in the first place. I have spoken to every member of the staff one on one at least once, save for Keaton, and you have all treated me with respect and kindness I so clearly don’t deserve.
To all my closest friends, I'm not saying I'm anything special but I enjoy your company and you enjoy mine. I didn't think about how you guys would feel should I leave and that is just as bad as if I said you mean nothing to me.
I can't think of anyone else to apologize to, even though I know there most likely are. You are the ones I will most likely never be able to apologize enough to. But know that whatever I did, be it out of malice, jealousy, os sadness, I am so so sorry.
I just felt so damn lonely, and I wanted answers as to why people seemed so against me when all I had to do was look at myself to see what was so wrong. I appreciate the people on this forum. I enjoy their company and look forward to chatting with them everyday. All I can say now is that I hope you can forgive me, but I completely understand if you don’t.
