well you see in the past two years i've been thinking about my friends's lives and try to help them with there problems and i totally frogot that i have a life. the people saw me as a hero. but you see they only know that i am there friend when they have a problem. and when they don't have a problem they don't know me as if i didn't exist. and my family and relitevs they were annoying me with the whole marige thing. whenever i meet someone he begins to talk about his story and how he got married. so i didn't have any place to run. and i didn't have anyone to talk to. so i had to do something to lower the presure. so i made up that lie to have some rest. and try to think about my life and rearrange it and try to get back on track to fulfill my dream which by the way won't happen. becuse i lived a long time as a hero and i became a Villain.