I don't feel ready... not at all... my father wants me here... I want to see their lives and be part of my family's life. I don't want my father and mother dying without me even being close or aware, I don't want something happen to my family and not be in range. I don't want them to miss me, I don't want to feel like I've betrayed them and turned my back on them. I don't want to miss out on my sister's high points in her life...
It's just... too much of a sacrifice...