I use to be so immature. Thinking back on it upsets me, because I made so many wrongs. Now I just want to be accepted as a person, not an idiot. It's so hard fitting in. I'm a guy, with problems. I mean, I have serious mood swings. Issues and everything, but I'm here in my life working two jobs as it is. I don't have to do them, but I chose to. My family is disappointed with me, and don't accept my girlfriend. A few times now I thought of suicide, and when I thought my girlfriend was about to break up with me; I practically walked right into the road. She pulled me away, but hell. If she was going to leave, I would of topped myself. I couldn't live without her. I just wish things were easier. I wake up and do the same stuff each day. The only reason I came online today was to do something different. I'm so bored, and I just had work. I can't see my girlfriend until tomorrow, and my phone is practically ****ed.