Have you ever stopped and thought about what it would be like to see yourself from the eyes of another person? Not even like a particular person, just someone that's not you. I sometimes do. I find it interesting and often wonder how other people see me. If only because I get so confused when people say nice things about me. I never know what I did to deserve it.
Its curious though. People seem to think of me as a nice helpful person, but forget about all the times I've been a complete asshat. I get the sense people see me as a certain way and expect me to always act like that, so when I act like an asshole people view it as to OOC. Its like people want consistency and the image of me is to concrete and resists change, so they just block it out or something.
I guess because this is a forum, so we don't really know who everyone is its easier to create a type of persona for everyone. As if we want people to be a certain way, so we kind of create an identity for them, like how a writer creates a character. I've been here for over a year now and I feel as if I've ascended to a VIP almost goddess like status and it bugs the ever living crap out of me. I didn't ask for anyone to think highly of me and I'd rather no one did. I'm not some immortal giant that can do no wrong. I've done some really stupid things here and just because I've never gotten in trouble for it doesn't mean it isn't bad. Here's all the stuff that springs to mind. Let the humbling begin.
1. I've made a 9 year old cry.
2. I was a part of a flame war.
3. I trolled and flame baited and then acted innocent when I was caught.
4. I offended several people many times.
5. I got in people's faces over their mistakes.
And I'm sure there is more. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't want anyone thinking of me as some super important member. I'm not some glue that keeps the forums together. This place had been around for years before I even joined and it will continue to exist and be a fun place to post once I leave. (Whenever that may be) We are all equally important here.
Oh my, I do believe the purpose of this thread has completely changed. I better change the title. *changes* I guess it shouldn't come as very surprising an innocent thread turned into me rambling about all this since I was listening to this while writing it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5q6sk...eature=related
It makes everything a million times more epic. I decided its gonna be Lightning's theme. XD
Its curious though. People seem to think of me as a nice helpful person, but forget about all the times I've been a complete asshat. I get the sense people see me as a certain way and expect me to always act like that, so when I act like an asshole people view it as to OOC. Its like people want consistency and the image of me is to concrete and resists change, so they just block it out or something.
I guess because this is a forum, so we don't really know who everyone is its easier to create a type of persona for everyone. As if we want people to be a certain way, so we kind of create an identity for them, like how a writer creates a character. I've been here for over a year now and I feel as if I've ascended to a VIP almost goddess like status and it bugs the ever living crap out of me. I didn't ask for anyone to think highly of me and I'd rather no one did. I'm not some immortal giant that can do no wrong. I've done some really stupid things here and just because I've never gotten in trouble for it doesn't mean it isn't bad. Here's all the stuff that springs to mind. Let the humbling begin.
1. I've made a 9 year old cry.
2. I was a part of a flame war.
3. I trolled and flame baited and then acted innocent when I was caught.
4. I offended several people many times.
5. I got in people's faces over their mistakes.
And I'm sure there is more. So I guess what I'm trying to say is that I don't want anyone thinking of me as some super important member. I'm not some glue that keeps the forums together. This place had been around for years before I even joined and it will continue to exist and be a fun place to post once I leave. (Whenever that may be) We are all equally important here.
Oh my, I do believe the purpose of this thread has completely changed. I better change the title. *changes* I guess it shouldn't come as very surprising an innocent thread turned into me rambling about all this since I was listening to this while writing it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5q6sk...eature=related
It makes everything a million times more epic. I decided its gonna be Lightning's theme. XD