Ryuuou
The King Of Chinese Dragons
Hey guys and girls how are you all doing!?
I'm back with guts. Did I miss something? I feel like I have been out of this world for so long now. In my own world but this is a very important life process to me. I almost died again this year. About a month ago. My heart almost stopped. he... No one believes that. No wonder but that actually happened. No wonder I got guts. Anemia.... Hypoxia... Delirium a consequence of quitting pharma drugs. I'm afraid of the future because I'm more happier than I have evver been. I have hopes in my life. I believe in love and 2013 was not in vain. Nine years in ''mental prison'' was not in vain either but that really felt like being at the bottom of Silent hill in the dark dimension with a white straight jacket.. With more common words. A restriction on my heart. Now I sit with all these emotions I have not been able too feel because of those poisonous medicines. I know there are many out there who gets this treatment as well as diagnoses but you shouldn't believe in something unfamiliar like that. I have never met any like me who quit the medical treatment in my life. I cannot speak for people I don't know. I still see this world and most of the humans in my own perspective. I just want to help those who are stuck in the same as me because it's possible to get out of it. Not by escaping but by self-reason and 24/7 focus on everything around you. Still there might be other or worse conditions that I have been in. I believe in free will. Missed you all here too. Hope I get active here again. I think I will. I thank you all because you supported me this winter 2013 and I would not have made this far by myself. That's for sure.
I'm back with guts. Did I miss something? I feel like I have been out of this world for so long now. In my own world but this is a very important life process to me. I almost died again this year. About a month ago. My heart almost stopped. he... No one believes that. No wonder but that actually happened. No wonder I got guts. Anemia.... Hypoxia... Delirium a consequence of quitting pharma drugs. I'm afraid of the future because I'm more happier than I have evver been. I have hopes in my life. I believe in love and 2013 was not in vain. Nine years in ''mental prison'' was not in vain either but that really felt like being at the bottom of Silent hill in the dark dimension with a white straight jacket.. With more common words. A restriction on my heart. Now I sit with all these emotions I have not been able too feel because of those poisonous medicines. I know there are many out there who gets this treatment as well as diagnoses but you shouldn't believe in something unfamiliar like that. I have never met any like me who quit the medical treatment in my life. I cannot speak for people I don't know. I still see this world and most of the humans in my own perspective. I just want to help those who are stuck in the same as me because it's possible to get out of it. Not by escaping but by self-reason and 24/7 focus on everything around you. Still there might be other or worse conditions that I have been in. I believe in free will. Missed you all here too. Hope I get active here again. I think I will. I thank you all because you supported me this winter 2013 and I would not have made this far by myself. That's for sure.
Glad I'm not the only one...
