LordOfDarkness;297618 said:
Right, so once again another pointless Thread idea from LoD. Since everyone is so into agreeing that everything happens for a reason, and can't just take my topic seriously for a change.
If I could go back and not make this Thread, I would.
Is it bad that I lol'd at this?
Well, for moi, I have a lot of IFs.
If I could of stuck to my guns five years ago and just told my then ex that no, I will not come visit you you dumbass, then I wouldn't have ended up pregnant by the end of my visit.
If I could of shut up about being pregnant and just going home and raise my baby myself, he never would have known any better, and I'd still be sponging on my dear parents. Probably still have a life as well.
If I could of moved the hell out when we broke up again, I wouldn't have ended up pregnant. AGAIN.
If I could of bliksemed (that's a bad word, btw) that dude over the back of the head with that tray at McDonalds like I wanted to that day, I probably would have felt a lot better for it. And I would have scratched the crap out of his stupid shiny little race car too. Twat.
If I could of been told to get my work published sooner, then I'd probably be published right now.
If I could of been motivated enough and not get blinded by a boy when I was in high school, like all my slutty friends, then I would be living alone in my own apartment and having my friends and family over regularly, and have all my time to myself.
That's all my 'ifs'. I can't actually say that I regret any of it, because else I wouldn't have two beautiful kids and be getting married early this year. BUT, I did consider those outcomes vs the consequences of going the opposite route at the time of those events. It's not like I got myself into something I didn't expect. I'm more of a live in the moment kind of person - if something comes my way and I have two or more options, I decide which route to take that would be best for me. It doesn't just happen. I make the choice.