but mom doesn't want me to go and she's making a big deal outta it...oh it's on the other side of the world...oh they're communists....blah blah blah...she went to ireland by herself when she was my age....and now she's letting up a bit...but it's getting to the point where i really don't want to go now cuz she's ruined it....as for dc...i love dc....one of my favorite places....so beautiful...but i went there last year...as for my dad...he can care less...as long as it helps me get a scholarship...dad's never really been one of those "proud fathers"...and it's cool...i like being smart...i like challenges in life...in my opinion it's not hard enough for me...no matter how depressed i get and all....but...being smart isn't rewarding anymore....i see no reason to it...lemme rephrase that...it's cool to have family happy for u...but...i'd really like to have someone...who can know this and be like...omg that's so great, i'm so happy to be with u.....