LordOfDarkness
The Dark Avenger © †
You know, I've been a member here for just over four years. I've tried to be as nice as I possibly could be to everyone. Always welcomed new people here. Always helped people out as much as I could. Always told everyone how much I value and appreciate them. Always tried to do my bit here just to be a nice guy.
And that's how 'most' of you saw me, as an okay guy. But a lot of you think differently of me. Some of you jump down my throat for TRYING to be a nice guy. I elaborate on points about things, but that's not okay? We all do it here, it's called a forum.
I can't stand how some of you look down on me. You quite frankly view me as the dirt on your shoe. When all I am trying to do is be nice to you and help you. I don't want to 'call' anyone out on this. Besides, you all probably know who you are anyway. All I'm going to say is thank you. Thank you for not letting me just say what I think and making my time here miserably for the last few months. Since I've come back there's been nothing but people telling me I should act this way and that way and that I'm an annoying person. Most of you lot said I was a nice person when you first started to get to know me. And I fail to see how I've done anything differently to change your minds. I feel it's you who has changed, and I feel it's you that needs to act differently.
Anyway, I can't honestly be dealing with much of it any more. Like last time I took a much needed break from here. I'll be doing the same again. Maybe give some of you time to think about how hurt I am with what you've said to me and the way in which you view me. I'm human and I have my opinion also. I never even say my opinion is the best or try and post it like fact. I post what I believe and what I feel and I post things that I know are true. I don't make things up to fit my opinion or try to get everyone to think like me. I know everyone has the right to think how they so wish, I would never ever try to change people's minds to my way of thinking.
So cheers, it's nice to know how little I am actually valued as a person and as a member here. We as humans are all equal, so you may think "Who cares that he's taking a break?" or whatever else. But if we are all equal, it means we should all respect each others feelings. And a lot of you haven't respected my feelings and you have honestly hurt me quite a lot. I can talk to anyone here in a friendly manner. I always do with every member and every member of staff. So once again, those who have a problem with me, actually think as to why you do have one. Because I honestly don't get it, and you're making me feel like I'm not even welcome here any more.
And it's also nice to see my threads constantly getting closed. Just like in the past, when all I wanted to do was talk about things. I don't think I run this place. The staff members do. I know that and I respect that. I don't see why some of you think I take the law into my own hands. I just try to make sure everyone is having a good time and is getting along as much as they can with one another so that it does not affect how anyone else is feeling on here. I'm not trying to play God or run this place, because I honestly couldn't. The staff members, they do a hard job. So please stop thinking that I think I'm some sort of leader, it honestly sickens me. I don't think anyone should expect anything or deserve anything for being nice here. I just think it's right if those who are being nice and are behaving themselves are treated with some respect, as an oppose to be treated with negativity.
So for the record, I don't think I'm better than anyone else. I know I talk to a lot of people and say "Make sure you ignore so and so if you don't get along". But that is because I care about them and don't want to see them get into any kind of trouble. That's just me looking out for people. It's nice to care for others and make sure they don't get into trouble. It'd be nice if someone was watching my back when I might need some help or advice. But I don't mind if I don't get that, it's not going to hurt me. I'd rather help others than be helped myself.
To those who can understand me and how I am, and don't hate me for being me, thank you. You're the ones that I know I can talk to without thinking "Oh god, I hope I haven't said the wrong thing". Why should I have to tip toe around people? Your problems with me are your problems. If you can't change them, then that's how it is. But don't think you should make me feel bad about being here, when I know I'm just trying to be friendly. Because that's when you start to hurt my feelings, and I don't think that's fair because I don't do the same to you.
So from the end of today, I'll be taking a break. Might be about a week or so. I just honestly want some members here to change their view of me. Since they use to have a different view of me, but now they're just making me feel unwelcome here and I don't like that.
And that's how 'most' of you saw me, as an okay guy. But a lot of you think differently of me. Some of you jump down my throat for TRYING to be a nice guy. I elaborate on points about things, but that's not okay? We all do it here, it's called a forum.
I can't stand how some of you look down on me. You quite frankly view me as the dirt on your shoe. When all I am trying to do is be nice to you and help you. I don't want to 'call' anyone out on this. Besides, you all probably know who you are anyway. All I'm going to say is thank you. Thank you for not letting me just say what I think and making my time here miserably for the last few months. Since I've come back there's been nothing but people telling me I should act this way and that way and that I'm an annoying person. Most of you lot said I was a nice person when you first started to get to know me. And I fail to see how I've done anything differently to change your minds. I feel it's you who has changed, and I feel it's you that needs to act differently.
Anyway, I can't honestly be dealing with much of it any more. Like last time I took a much needed break from here. I'll be doing the same again. Maybe give some of you time to think about how hurt I am with what you've said to me and the way in which you view me. I'm human and I have my opinion also. I never even say my opinion is the best or try and post it like fact. I post what I believe and what I feel and I post things that I know are true. I don't make things up to fit my opinion or try to get everyone to think like me. I know everyone has the right to think how they so wish, I would never ever try to change people's minds to my way of thinking.
So cheers, it's nice to know how little I am actually valued as a person and as a member here. We as humans are all equal, so you may think "Who cares that he's taking a break?" or whatever else. But if we are all equal, it means we should all respect each others feelings. And a lot of you haven't respected my feelings and you have honestly hurt me quite a lot. I can talk to anyone here in a friendly manner. I always do with every member and every member of staff. So once again, those who have a problem with me, actually think as to why you do have one. Because I honestly don't get it, and you're making me feel like I'm not even welcome here any more.
And it's also nice to see my threads constantly getting closed. Just like in the past, when all I wanted to do was talk about things. I don't think I run this place. The staff members do. I know that and I respect that. I don't see why some of you think I take the law into my own hands. I just try to make sure everyone is having a good time and is getting along as much as they can with one another so that it does not affect how anyone else is feeling on here. I'm not trying to play God or run this place, because I honestly couldn't. The staff members, they do a hard job. So please stop thinking that I think I'm some sort of leader, it honestly sickens me. I don't think anyone should expect anything or deserve anything for being nice here. I just think it's right if those who are being nice and are behaving themselves are treated with some respect, as an oppose to be treated with negativity.
So for the record, I don't think I'm better than anyone else. I know I talk to a lot of people and say "Make sure you ignore so and so if you don't get along". But that is because I care about them and don't want to see them get into any kind of trouble. That's just me looking out for people. It's nice to care for others and make sure they don't get into trouble. It'd be nice if someone was watching my back when I might need some help or advice. But I don't mind if I don't get that, it's not going to hurt me. I'd rather help others than be helped myself.
To those who can understand me and how I am, and don't hate me for being me, thank you. You're the ones that I know I can talk to without thinking "Oh god, I hope I haven't said the wrong thing". Why should I have to tip toe around people? Your problems with me are your problems. If you can't change them, then that's how it is. But don't think you should make me feel bad about being here, when I know I'm just trying to be friendly. Because that's when you start to hurt my feelings, and I don't think that's fair because I don't do the same to you.
So from the end of today, I'll be taking a break. Might be about a week or so. I just honestly want some members here to change their view of me. Since they use to have a different view of me, but now they're just making me feel unwelcome here and I don't like that.
