Yeah..I know that a lot of you who read this is going to give me ****. I never been to Hawaii and I have always wanted to go. But to actually move there and by myself non the less..this is going to be a major drastic life changing experiences for just one person. And to one of the most expensive places in the United States, if not the most. I've only known the feeling of being dependent on others never knowing the true feeling of being alone. I don't want to waste my life away depending on someone, it makes me feel useless, hopeless and incapable of doing things for myself.That can be a good thing and a bad thing, and I never learned how to grow up. I'm 27 years old and I don't want to sit back on my ass and wish for my life to get better..I want to make it happen. I want don't want to be all talk and have nothing to show for it. This is just something that I must do..*sigh* I can't be scared because I'm alone..yes I will fail but that's the only way that people will learn anything..or maybe that's just for me. But I can't turn back now..not again..I've already done that once already. I canceled my flight cause I was terrified, I can't do it again. I can't throw it away, I think I know what it means to fight for something that you want that you refuse to let go. Cause it'll always be in the back of my mind...what if..
I kneed to know what lays beyond the endless boundaries of my mind to go beyond my limit. I can't give up I refuse to let my fears get the best of me.
Not anymore....
So I ask of you, anyone. I welcome your advice anything helpful at all.
Thank you~
I kneed to know what lays beyond the endless boundaries of my mind to go beyond my limit. I can't give up I refuse to let my fears get the best of me.
Not anymore....
So I ask of you, anyone. I welcome your advice anything helpful at all.
Thank you~