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All the walls that you keep building
All this time that I spent chasing
All the ways that I keep losing you
The truth is, you turn into someone else
You keep running like the sky is falling
I can whisper, I can yell
But I know, yeah I know, yeah I know
I'm just talking to myself
I admit I made mistakes
But yours might cost you everything
Can't you hear me calling you home?

You hid your skeletons when I had shown you mine
You woke the devil that I thought you'd left behind
I saw the evidence, the crimson soaking through
Ten thousand promises, ten thousand ways to lose
And you held it all but you were careless to let it fall
You held it all and I was by your side, powerless
I watched you fall apart and chased you to the end
I'm left with emptiness that words can not defend
You'll never know what I became because of you

I don't like my mind right now
Stacking up problems that are so unnecessary
Wish that I could slow things down
I wanna let go but there's comfort in the panic
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me
Yeah, I drive myself crazy
'Cause I can't escape the gravity
I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
You say that I'm paranoid
But I'm pretty sure the world is out to get me
It's not like I make the choice
To let my mind stay so ******* messy
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
I'm holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
I know I'm not the center of the universe
But you keep spinning 'round me just the same
And I drive myself crazy
Thinking everything's about me
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
Holding on
So much more than I can carry
I keep dragging around what's bringing me down
If I just let go, I'd be set free
Holding on
Why is everything so heavy?
 

therogis

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This year it was my first suicide attempt's 10 year anniversary. I have been eating the same pills with variable dosages since then. I'm still not fine. Not like everyone else. Not mentally stable. Not capable of taking care of my studies, my home or even myself.

I'm crying a lot. I have nightmares. I can't concentrate on anything. I can't go outside because I can't stand the sounds of traffic or other people. If I'm not sad and having trouble in breathing properly, I'm so angry I really have to concentrate on not to hit anyone. I haven't taken a shower for four days. I haven't been attending on lectures. I don't want to see anyone, I don't answer to messages or phone calls and there are several e-mails I should check and reply, but I just won't do it. There are bills to pay, but I don't care.

I've been told that psychotherapy could help me. It seems that nothing else can.
Just that I can't afford it.
 

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F*** this stupid "you can't compare apples and oranges" bulls***.

The very community we're in has been comparing "apples and oranges" for more than a decade but as soon as I come up with a comparison that makes your favorite game look inferior, then you start pulling up the "you can't compare x and y, because that will be like comparing apples and oranges".

I can't believe it took me this long to figure it out.
"It will be like comparing apples and oranges" comes from desperate dumbf***s who are losing arguments.
 

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I remember looking up some "survey" and found out that about half people who participated want Japanese honorifics preserved in visual novels not set in Japan.
For example, "Arthur-sama, have you seen Merlin-dono?"

Thanos was right.
 

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Honest to goodness I thought that by the time I was in my 20's, I'd know what to do with my life and be doing it.

Darned if I'm 37 and still none the wiser.

I am so bored...
 

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The Royal Mail is such trash.

They issue charges on packages that are frankly highway robbery, then they claim there's an error which requires you to pay it a second time (it wasn't actually an error it turns out, I ended up overpaying by double). Then the package doesn't arrive I contact them and it turns out they don't have it and don't have a clue where it might be.

So now I'm broke and don't even have what I overpaid for. And the response from customer services amounted to "sucks to be you, sort it out yourself."

Great... :grumpy:
 

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Holy hell, dude--how many different ways do I need to say I'm not in the mood to RP? I didn't want to RP with you in the first place, considering we hadn't built up any kind of a rapport beforehand. Looks like I shouldn't have caved then, because now you're ****ing insufferable and pretty much stalking me between two sites.

Ffs, if he doesn't listen this time (I was blunt, yet polite) I'm ****ing blocking him. End of story. -_-
 

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"Did you just tweet that you like a popular thing? I better respond with that one image of Jay from RLM, and nothing else." - An extremely witty and likeable person, that everyone respects and looks up to.
 

therogis

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This year it was my first suicide attempt's 10 year anniversary. I have been eating the same pills with variable dosages since then. I'm still not fine. Not like everyone else. Not mentally stable. Not capable of taking care of my studies, my home or even myself.

I'm crying a lot. I have nightmares. I can't concentrate on anything. I can't go outside because I can't stand the sounds of traffic or other people. If I'm not sad and having trouble in breathing properly, I'm so angry I really have to concentrate on not to hit anyone. I haven't taken a shower for four days. I haven't been attending on lectures. I don't want to see anyone, I don't answer to messages or phone calls and there are several e-mails I should check and reply, but I just won't do it. There are bills to pay, but I don't care.

I've been told that psychotherapy could help me. It seems that nothing else can.
Just that I can't afford it.
It's been two weeks since I quit my pills. I'm feeling terrible, I haven't been at the university this month at all, and it seems no one's missing me either. I hate to say that I was expecting at least a message asking if I'm ok or dead.
 

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So a woman was killed because she put her head out of the window of a moving train.

And it's the train company's fault for "inadequate signage"? A sign that says "caution" apparently means "stick your head out of a fast-moving vehicle, but please do it slowly and carefully just in case your stupidity causes a lawsuit". Also it's the fault of the people in charge of cutting back tree branches - because that's what smacked the woman upside her head and killed her.

At no point has anyone raised the issue of how NOT to behave on a train. Even a child knows you don't stick your head out of the windows. Common sense should prevail here.

It's a real tragedy that this person has died...but at 28 years old and fully mentally competent, you should know better than to do something so dumb.
 

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Sitting here, giving me the silent treatment for not doing something you have just as much ability to do as I do (given we're both sick and depressed) is childish af. Seriously, if you're so f***ing mad about it, then you risk your health and safety to do it. Don't sit there fuming and taking your bad mood out on me because I'm an easy target, because I'm not going to tolerate it. I'm not going to climb up there and risk passing out in this state. It's not going to get any worse than it currently is; just be patient.
 

therogis

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I blocked my mother several months ago so she can't call or text me anymore. I thought I'd be finally free after that.
But it seems that since she can't abuse me anymore, she abuses my older brother.

During last night she has sent my brother over a dozen text messages insulting him and his family (his spouse and children) and telling that if my brother doesn't give her my grandma's inheritance, my brother's children will never see her again.

I feel like this is my fault, if I just let her call me she wouldn't harass my brother and his family.

She knows how to do this. How to keep everyone in her control.
There's no escape. I'll never be free.
 

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I think one of the things that bothers me about current year is how there seems to be little room for discourse. The moment someone questions something or even slightly disagrees, they get slapped with an -ist or -phobe label. It's one thing if someone is an outright dick; it's quite another if all they're doing is asking a question or stating their perspective on something.

Basically, a lot of people were never made to make mock debates in school, and it shows.
 

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I blocked my mother several months ago so she can't call or text me anymore. I thought I'd be finally free after that.
But it seems that since she can't abuse me anymore, she abuses my older brother.

During last night she has sent my brother over a dozen text messages insulting him and his family (his spouse and children) and telling that if my brother doesn't give her my grandma's inheritance, my brother's children will never see her again.

I feel like this is my fault, if I just let her call me she wouldn't harass my brother and his family.

She knows how to do this. How to keep everyone in her control.
There's no escape. I'll never be free.
I am sorry you are going through this kind of ordeal, but stay firm in your stance. Don't give in, and don't let her intimidate you into giving her your inheritance. It's your inheritance. Your grandmother gave it to you for a reason.

She is playing the guilt game. That's not a good mother. A good mother would sacrifice everything to make YOU successful. That's probably your grandmother's thought.
 

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I think one of the things that bothers me about current year is how there seems to be little room for discourse. The moment someone questions something or even slightly disagrees, they get slapped with an -ist or -phobe label. It's one thing if someone is an outright dick; it's quite another if all they're doing is asking a question or stating their perspective on something.

Basically, a lot of people were never made to make mock debates in school, and it shows.
This. A billion times this.

I am so SICK of the use of phobic/phobia/phobe as a suffix. It's a way of those with plenty of outrage but very little intelligence to slam anyone who doesn't think like them.

To be able to handle a differing point of view or belief or even lifestyle without getting mortally offended by it is a skill sadly lacking these days.

Plus, call me old-fashioned, but a phobia is an irrational fear of something...like buttons. Or clowns. Or pylons (it's a thing, I saw it in a documentary once). A disagreement or differing opinion is not a phobia. It might be unpalatable to some, but it's not a phobia. To call it a phobia is to almost say it borders on a kind of mental illness to not to agree.

Those on the bandwagon of whatever is popular in terms of so-called progression tend to be the most small-minded, insecure and angry people I have ever encountered; I don't get angry about what I believe in because I am secure in it. I don't need to have my mind changed, nor do I feel the need to ram it down someone else's throat about what I believe.

If you know who you are, you don't need constant validation through pulling down others because they don't agree with you or your views.

I have yet to encounter anyone online or irl who is able to handle a discussion without them resorting to knee-jerk name-calling.

How am I going to understand something or at least respect another's position if I don't get to discuss it? I'm not telepathic...

Tolerance, if you agree with that sort of thing, is a two-way street - you can't demand it for your views and not reciprocate.
 

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@Angel Exactly. I see myself as a Centrist that's a bit more Left-leaning, but there are definitely things I can agree with or at the very least, understand from the Right's perspective. Honestly, the extremes of both sides drive me crazy, tbh, because they both tend to do exactly what you said--resort to knee-jerk name-calling and whatnot. And if I'm perfectly honest, I see a lot more of it from the Left than the Right, which really doesn't help; there's a vocal minority making it bad for the majority by not allowing differing points of view, and thus making it difficult for anyone from other parts of the political spectrum to take them seriously.

And in the end, that hurts everyone. When you start policing the way people think, feel, etc. you've already lost, because you've become precisely what you dislike/hate about "the other side". (Which is another thing I dislike; it always boils down to "If you're not with us, you're against us", and that's just...well, bullshit. Political, religious, and personal views are as complex as the people who have them).

Anyway, that's pretty much the long and the short of it. ^^; Provided it's done respectfully, I love seeing different views--it's how we grow as people.
 

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Whelp.....Time to get real here....I'm gonna apologize in advance for this everyone, but I need to rant about this somewhere, and here, no one knows who I really am, so seems perfect.

So I got an older cousin, by 5 years. She was a substitute teacher at a high school......Was a substitute teacher. Well now she apparently got involved with a student. Yup, she got involved with a student. So now, and due to the age of consent of our province, this has nothing to do with the dude's age (All the media is saying is that he's a senior high school student, so he's 16-18), but the fact that she was a teacher. So now her career is over, and she's being charged.

So I don't know, if she actually did it or not. I have not spoken with her in some time, and I heard from my mother, who heard from my aunt, that she's not allowed to talk about it to anyone. That's what her lawyer said.

But I'm pi$$ed off. I'm pi$$ed off that she may have been stupid enough to do something that will ruin her life. I'm pi$$ed off that I've read hundreds of comments, $lut shaming, someone who I've known since I was a baby, who was kinda like my big sister. I'm pi$$ed off because I can't even imagine what my aunt is going though, that's her only child, and people can be so judgemental. What if they start saying things about my aunt because of what her daughter did? But I'm also pi$$ed off because I know, if she really did do what she's accused of. Then she deserves the consequences.

As much as that hurts, not just me, we got other cousins, our moms, our aunts and uncles. We all know if she has to go to jail, then that's the way it is.
 

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Sweetie, I don't give a **** what the reason behind your status was. You don't post "What's with all these guys dating skeleton girls with man faces lately? Lol gross... Get yourself a real woman with curves" and think there won't be some backlash. If it were the reverse, and some skinny chick was posting fat-shaming and telling men to get with a real girl like her, everyone would be in a ****ing uproar. :rolleyes:


In Blue Stahli's words, "Malevolence goes both ways". You don't get to play the victim just because I called you out for your problematic attitude. Pushing one group down to build up another is not empowerment; you're too ****ing old for this high-school bullshit.

Edit: And they blocked me. Welp, at least the trash is taking itself out, now.
 
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America, you need to sort your **** out already. Stop calling actual football soccer and your football football when actual football uses feet way more prominently than your "football", stop calling fuel gas when it's not a gas, stop calling salame pepperoni when peperoni (one p) is a totally different thing, and for the love of everything that's holy, stop using that medieval ass measurement system. Because inches and feet belong to the freaking Middle Age.

Oh, and stop acting like doing all that is alright and should be standard just because you're 'Murica.
 
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