Hey darkie how are you doing? ^^ i see you are having it really bad there.
im not here to pity you or give you some smartassness advise, just telling you if you just a little bit pity yourself or etc (i was going to something else here too but forget it) you'll go deep down in darkness and
Hey, if you want me to send you my interpretation of the DMCverse (Genesis account only), I can PM it to you. It is pretty long though and presupposes a little knowledge of Gnosticism and Hermeticism. (Check Gnosis.org and Kybalion online, respectively).